I was so upset with myself tonight. First, I had a soda at 4, which took me until dinner to finish, and then I... got another soda! .. SOoooo... that took me a while to drink and what I'm getting at is that it keeps me up and awake.

So, then I notice that my hot chocolate was thrown away. Now, Starbucks stops making Peppermint Hot Chocolate after a certain day, and.. they ran out of reserves.. so their regular hc has been watery.. so I added some peppermint cocoa powder to it. But I'm almost out of that. So I had my last good tasting hot chocolate... thrown away. (I think, I had a couple hot chocolates, but I think it was that one.) SO SAD..

So, I was stupid.. maybe I took my pills too late.. And I woke my mom up.. So we're fighting and then Joe started yelling.. Ugh.. but it was too late to stop, cuz I'm stupid and now I feel bad.. again, stupid. So, my mom kicks me in my stomach (ok that's wacked, but she's wacked). So then I felt so bad that I cried. And my night felt all ruined. So I had to bug her about "Make me feel better." Ugh..

What a sick night, I mean, seriously, what a mentally ill night.

I'm better now, though. But I stayed up more. Even though waking up late makes me tired and not-so-feeling-good-about-myself.. But I wanted to do something nice and fun for myself. So I made smilies.

They're the BEST smilies! Yay.   (They're at my site.. members section)

But I AM going to bed now, and I set my alarm for 12.. I know I won't get 8 hours, but I don't want to wake up later. I'll be fine, I think.

Gahh..

And don't judge this, I know it's really wacked, but it's hard to understand. We're all wacked anyway, right? I hope? Heh.